“The Hierophant reversal meaning is mostly about questioning certain traditions and making sure that whatever it is that you do is the right thing for you in this certain moment.”
From the get-go, I received a card that indicated the sceptical elements of my early life. If I try to recall – from the earliest memories of my life – I always acted in ways that seemed unorthodox or unconventional. I disliked the routine of nursery, then disliked school too. I can remember missing my fair share of school days from a toddler to a teenager; that was a pattern I’d slip into quite a lot.
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I remember recently having this dream of being myself as a child, traversing a long corridor of paintings. These paintings felt alive, jumping out, blinking and waving their hands at me. I can recall the isolation of watching the world from a frame, suffocated by the long infinity of the tight walls.
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When I reflect on my early childhood, it felt like I was watching the world in the confines of a hood over my head, obscuring my vision. Maybe it was a way for me to cope with the overwhelming aspects of interaction, or how I hyper-analysed every detail of a normal day-to-day life.
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Maybe this coping mechanism of mine forced me to resist change – I felt comfort in familiarity. Nursery, primary school, then secondary school must’ve been quite strenuous on my early adapting identity. I think that’s why I isolated myself and skipped out on school and its social aspects.
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In terms of value, this card speaks to me in the ways of self-reflection and the reasons for my challenges, encompassed by the certain behaviours I would display.